oh well.. maybe like this is the best way out? maybe u will be happier this way.maybe the problem really lies with me.
perhaps i really couldn't commit...perhaps im really selfish as you said.everything i say counts, the final say of everything..
i placed myself first before you..neglected u when i have frens but forgetting that ure alone there..maybe like wad u say, its pointless to give chances if things were to repeat.i know its difficult rowing a lop-sided boat..maybe no one else will be like you, putting me before themselves other than my parents. at least u've done me no wrong..or should i say u've been really nice to me, doted on me..
back to the past when i was still working in MOE, i rang u up at 9am while u were still sleeping, just to deliver a pad to me..u didnt reject or scold me but still came all the way down to buona vista.. when i am hungry at night, u will over to buy food for me and pass it to me outside my house..u will cab all the way to the place just to get the food that i want to eat..when i lost my wallet, u rush down to bukit batok from jp just to check with the bus service if they found anything and then go back to jp again..im really very touched..
but everytime when im angry, i failed to remember of the nitty gritty things u've done for me..or perhaps i am very petty..i throw tantrums over the slighest thing.. maybe because u replied me very slow when u were dotaing..lol, yeah maybe i was the rude one...maybe like wad u said, i treat my friends better than you? whenever i am sad, i know someone is sadder than me..whenever i feel pain externally, i know someone will feel internally painer than me me..felt so ashamed when u rmb more things than me since sec2..u take notice of every little things which i never realised and u often mention them too..maybe when we are friends already u won't create a big hooha over little wrongs i've done..which means we will not quarrel often which also meant that u will not be sad already.. i dont know if this is the right way or not..i dont know if this decision is correct or not.. but i dont want u to be unhappy anymore..for i know this past 13mths ur world is revolves around me only..u always say i have frens..at least when i leave u, i still have my buddies..but for u is a different scenerio cos all the while ur time is all given to me..i think i am really very bad..u were heartpain, yet u still put on a facade and tried to make me smile and laugh..but still, u are the best moley ever :') i hope u will be happier without me.....but again, is it very mean of me?
i really don't know how to express my thanks..but really, im very happy during those 13 mths..